Elizabeth's Diary 3-01-26 Afternoon

 

Good afternoon, I maid some BOCA Veggie Burgers with Ketchup and some Whole Wheat Bread for Lunch. The Sermon Today was quite Good especially since he went into Details about Jesus in the Wilderness and how it was a call back to stories in The Tanakh, that's the Actual name of the Old Testament. I used to have The New Testament Recovery Version as well as a Tanakh that I'd bring to Youth Group. The Former I was given for Free in the Mail by Bibles for America and the Tanakh I bought from Barnes and Nobles when it was in Dickson City. I may have used the Footnotes in the Recovery Version to Answer Questions in Youth Group back when I was 16. Yeah, I wasn't a True Believer until my Near Death Experience when I was 19. Before being Saved by Actually meeting The Lord in the Empyrean cleansed me of the Darkness of Solipsism. Kierkegaard is my Favorite Philosopher for that Reason, if you Don't Believe in a Higher Power then you are more Prone to Madness in Life. 

I checked the Mail and got a Salvation Army Magazine, that does Remind me, I'm gonna Donate some Clothes either this Week or Next Week. Mom wants me to make some Broccoli and Cream Soup, she saw my Let's Plays and seems to get a kick out of me saying "Y'all", honestly it's just how I speak. I had Selective Mutism for a few Years after what Happened to me in School coupled my Voice going down an Octave so I was Silent for some time. Only after getting my Glandular in June of 2016 did my Voice Return and it was Higher in Pitch and Slightly Southern of all things. But at least I talk now.

My Written Voice however has been Active for Several Years, and it's something I pride myself in. I'm not too keen on Simplicity when it comes to Writing. I've been Writing for Several Years, however it was Stalled in 2014-2015 when I was the 7th Admin for Legend of Zelda Fans on Facebook, however similar to my Position as The LGBTQ Representative of the Cultural and Linguistics Subcommittee in Wayne County's Systems of Care, I left out of both Disillusionment as well as a way to Break the Chains of my Old Self. It's why I view myself in the Past as a Separate Entity all together. He was merely a Mask, a Facade, who I am Now has Always been the Real me. 

That's why I let someone on Facebook who Pretends to be the Old me carry on and Have his Fun. He doesn't realize his Attempts at Antagonizing me has lead to him Inadvertently becoming my Personal Phantom. Of course there are Obvious Differences and between him and me, my Phantom has very Simple Tastes in Games. He prefers Mobile Games and I prefer ROM hacks and Tabletop RPGs, not just D&D and Warhammer but Several. My Favorite has to be the West End Star Wars Roleplaying Game. What kinda makes me laugh as well is my Impostor's need to Flaunt his Girlfriend. It's Common Knowledge that I'm AroAce. Still he has Use as he Helps keep some Family and old Friends in the Dark.

I'm gonna get Dinner started soon, I'm making some Broccoli and Cream Soup for Mom and I. I'll write more this Evening.-Elizabeth 

Elizabeth's Diary 3-01-26 Morning

 Good morning, Today's Wash Day so we are Doing the Laundry, well Mom is taking Charge of the Laundry and I'm Cleaning the House. I had an Interesting Dream, I was in Therapy and things went as Normal without Bringing up Last Week. Mom says it's because I forgave him, Of Course I did. Holding onto Grudges is Very Unhealthy. I ended up Uploading Another Let's Play on my YouTube, this one is for The Wind Waker. https://youtu.be/rY0h6g3GDRM

Yeah, I do find myself Interesting at Times, well in Particular my ASD seems to be Interesting. I have Lots of Emotions but essentially have a Hard Time expressing myself with Facial Communication. I'm Level 1 if you'd like to Pry. I'm very Self Aware, I've been Told as well, well there is a Saying about that "Know Thyself."

I barely ever Talk about my Step Father in particular because he Thrived off of Attention, he was a Total Narcissist who had the Delusion that he was a Genius, when they Reality was that he was Average if I'm being Generous about it. He used to Rent Games from Blockbuster and Not Return them then make Mom pay the Fee. If he Truly were Bright he'd just use Emulators like I do. In the Bible there is a Saying about that "Those who Believe they Know Everything actually Know Nothing."

Speaking of the Bible, I'm gonna get Ready for Church soon, you are All Welcome to Join me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVoMcTuygDo

I'll write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth