Elizabeth's Diary 3-03-26 Afternoon

 Good afternoon, I maid some Chicken Noodle Soup for Lunch, Mom had it with Saltines and Orange Juice. I had a lot of Coffee, I feel Rejuvenated, Caffeine is my Muse. I've been thinking of Heading back to DeviantART, however I also care about this Place as well. I consider my DeviantART to be my Main Base and this place as my Secret Base on the Back of the Moon. Yep I made a Naga Sadow reference, I used to be quite the Extended Universe Fan, I used to own Golden Age of The Sith, it's one of my Favorite Comics. Personally I prefer the Sith over the Jedi, as the Sith in Plagueis's Words "Are not Afraid to Feel." Peace is Conditional in my Opinion and Passion is Forever. Personally I believe the Jedi act similarly to Modorns and the Sith are more similar to Yugaloths. Yep, I'm a D&D Fan as well, it's kinda Obvious that I'm a Nerd, a Super Cute Nerd. I even have the Nasally Voice, I'm proud to be one as well. 

Well, I'm considering writing on DeviantART this Evening, well I'll see if my Diary Entry doesn't Disappear and if it does, well I'll be back here. I've gotta Boast about me Winning a Couple wheels in Reign of Blood. I've mentioned it Numerous Times, I happen to be a Source of Good Luck in Naples Italy. 

I'm gonna get Dinner started soon, I'm making some Baked Tilapia and Mashed Potatoes. I'll write more either on Here or on DeviantART, who am I kidding, I'll likely Write more on Both.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 3-03-26 Morning

 

Good morning, I maid some Hash Browns for Breakfast and Mom brewed some Folger's Medium Roast, usually I make Coffee but she has the Spotlight on the Breakfast Stage today. I uploaded a Couple Let's Plays this morning. https://youtu.be/V_U0CrtIgnw and https://youtu.be/u_N7DA6MIZc 

I fell Asleep Early last Night so I'll have to make 2 Movie Reviews Tonight. I'm thinking Sky High and The Matrix Reloaded. I did notice that my Speech is Getting Slightly worse and it tends to Happen whenever I take my 2 Saw Palmetto Capsules. I'm gonna Lower my Dosage to see if that's the Cause of it and if it Isn't then I'll be getting an MRI. When you are Prescribed Psych meds for Several Years and if you tend to Generally Sleep, 3-5 Hours a Night, it can be Very Possible to have Brain Damage.

I got an Email from my Friend and my Mentor/Teacher Miss Kim, she tried to Access my Previous Blog but she was unable to Reach it last Week when DeviantART was having Issues, hence this Blog's Existence. I also shared my CS Lewis Homage on Furaffinity to her on Gmail. I'm gonna give her a Book that I've had for Several Years that's about Reading someone based off of their Face Shape, it's quite an Interesting Book.

Now I'm gonna Cook Lunch, I'm making some Chicken Noodle Soup, it's a Gloomy Day in Waymart with the Sleet and Snow, so I'll be Home with Violet and Mom. I'll write more Later this Afternoon.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 3-02-26 Evening

 

Good evening, I maid some Grilled Chicken and a couple Baked Potatoes with Spinach for Dinner, then I decided to make a couple Let's Playshttps://youtu.be/adcM90SqjV4 and https://youtu.be/eGgdACoyv5g . I have noticed that even with the Games that I play, I can be a Little bit Sentimental. In an Uncertain Future, the Past is what I have for Comfort. I guess I do have a Chip on my Shoulder, I may not Look it, but Time is Catching Up. Not that I'm Complaining, I actually don't Fear Aging let alone Death. I know I'll be heading to Heaven. What I do worry about is the World's Death, the World I grew up in is Decaying. Take Sunrise from last Week, that Park was where I grew up in, it turned into basically a Residential Landfill. Seeing the Playground set that my Big Sister Kat and I played on back when we were kids Disappeared and the Trailer became Incredibly Decrepit on the Outside, I Don't ever Want to Know what the Interior is like. I believe that Drugs are Responsible for a Majority of Honesdale's Issues. I was Fortunate Enough to Move out of Town when I could.

I'm gonna take a Nap soon, I have some Music to Listen to, a Movie to Watch and Eventually Review Tonight.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 3-02-26 Afternoon

 Good afternoon, I had a heck of a Day, Psych Rehab was very Different Today, in Particular there were 2 Incidents that I feel Require Attention and Hopefully Lessons, so this morning I walked to Shell's Station to Purchase 2 Colas one for Mom and the Other one for me. Then there was someone in the Group at Psych Rehab who was rather Manipulative and Narcissistic, he tried to Shift the Conversations which were Supposed to be about Collective Healing about Completely Random Topics centered around Himself. Then he kept Asking if the Center sold Soda, the Answer was No from the Staff, then the and I'm trying to Say this as Nicely as I can the Creep kept Sticking his Tongue out at me to Signify his Thirst. Honestly I would've Shared it with him had he Just Asked me instead of Staring at my Drinks and being a Manipulator. I don't Respond well to Envy, in fact if there's something that Disgusts me above all else it's Envy, it's the Cause of Hungry Ghost Rebirths in Buddhism. Constant Want but not Working to get what you want is the Cause for Many Problems. All it took was just Asking "Hey Lizzie can I have some Soda?" and I'd Respond "Of Course just get a Small Cup and I'll Share it with you." Jesus does say "Ask and you Shall Receive." You'd be Surprised how Generous I can be if you just Ask me.

I also was nearly Outed today, a Member of the Group asked "Who's Nicholas" Repeatedly I might add. While she may not have been Aware of her Actions, it's best for one of the Staff to Speak to her Privately. I'm not Quite Ready to Reveal that Detail about myself in that Setting. It's best for some to Not Know.

I did have a Good Day talking to a Friend in the Group about my Deltiology Hobby. I'm quite Proud of my Postcard Collection, especially since they were Mostly Free thanks to Listia. My Casemanager actually gave me a few from her Alaska Trip which I Treasure but my Favorite is the one Mom gave me when her and Kat went on Vacation. I still have it on my Nightstand. Speaking of, I gave Mom a Diet Coke and a Bulldog Stuffie. It's an Early Mother's Day Gift, in May I will be giving her Breakfast in Bed, some French Toast, Eggs, Sausage Links and Orange Juice.

I'm gonna get Ready for Dinner soon, I'm making some French Onion Soup. I'll write more this Evening.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 3-02-26 Morning

 Good morning, I maid some French Toast and an Egg Salad for Psych Rehab, I ended up not Sleeping well again. I read a rather Disturbing Story last night and it became a Rather Intrusive Thought. I've gotta stop Reading before Bed. I had a Dream about St. John's in Honesdale, I was in Confession, however I didn't have Anything to Confess. I suppose it's because I'm a United Methodist, to be Honest, I felt out of Place in the Roman Catholic Church, The Bible does say Once Saved Always Saved. While I do Believe that you should have Contrition, it should Only be between you and Jesus not a Stranger behind a Screen. Judgement should be Jesus's alone not a Human Being, only Jesus knows your Heart.

I am Intrigued about Psych Rehab today, I believe it'll be my First Group Therapy day, I imagine it'll be a Quiet Day as there's no Free Food. People by Nature tend to be Opportunists, it's our Nature since we bit the Pomegranate. I look forward to a Relatively Quiet Day.

I'm gonna get Ready for the Bus now, I'll be Styling my Hair like my Open Source Free Realms Character aka a High Ponytail. I'll write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 3-01-26 Night Time

 Good late evening, I maid some 4C Iced Tea for my Night Cap, despite being Tired, I did make Another Let's Play for my 3 a Day quota. I have an Offline version of Both Toontown and Club Penguin, the Wi-Fi will eventually go Away with Time due to the Price of Cable so I'm Preparing for when my Digital Connection goes away. I'd have WoW and Free Realms if I could as well but the Storage Space on Both of my Laptops is rather Nearing it's Capacity. Anywho here's the Video. https://youtu.be/1UBM9TGzq9I

So I will be Listening to some Music tonight, I'm a big fan of Video Game music as well as TV and Movie themes and songs. It's quite interesting Mom's Boyfriend Ron mentioned General Hospital and I have All of the Title Scores for it throughout the Decades. TV Tunes is a Great Site, of course the Video Game Music came from Zophar and KH Insider before the latter Disappeared. If there's something that's Always been a Universal Truth it's that Nothing is Permanent. The Forums I used to Frequent seem to be Disappearing as well. I am Almost 30 and I'm beginning to Notice that Things do change with Time. But one thing is Eternal, Jesus Christ, he has Always been and Always will be a Constant Presence in my Life.

I'm gonna get some Rest now, I'm Super Tired. I'll try to Write more in the Morning and if not it'll be in the Afternoon.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 3-01-26 Evening

Good evening, I maid some Broccoli and Cream Soup, it was a bit Too Sweet for both Mom and I so we added some Salt to it. I think it's because I maid it with Milk, next time, I'll just use Water. I've been Cooking since I was 11, I have Years of Practice. I'm the Best Cook in the Figura Family, I make a really good Shrimp Scampi, it's Mom's Favorite. Kat doesn't really like Seafood, she says it's because of her Faith. Personally I don't Follow Dietary Restrictions all the Time. I prefer to Only eat Pork if it's Baked in an Oven, I'll Never eat Fried Pork because of the Potential for Pathogens.

I did make Another Let's Play, I hope you like Final Fantasy 8? https://youtu.be/WR74c0gRNgo  I'm a big fan of the Franchise, my Favorites from this era has to be a Toss Up between 8's Realism and 9's Music and Plot. I'm a big RPG fan, well it Started back when I was 3 and used to Play a game called House, Pretend Games just Evolved into Role Playing Games with Time. My First RPG was Lord of The Rings The Third Age, I was quite fond of Minas Tirith, I love Architecture, hence why I excel at Drawing Landscapes. I can Draw unique Creatures as well, I do have a Difficult Time when it comes to Drawing People except for Myself. Back in my Drawing Days, I was a bit of a Ham, not Narcissistic just Self Loving especially after becoming a Girl. I went from Punching Mirrors to Smiling whenever I see my Reflection. I guess if anything I'm rather Vain, but it Doesn't make me Better than Others. I'm just Super Cute, Cute happens to be my Style.

I maid some Scrambled Eggs for Mom. I'll write more Tonight after I have my Nightcap, Tomorrow's Psych Rehab and it's Group Therapy Day. I will Resume the Movie Reviews Tomorrow Night. Have a Good Evening Everybody.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 3-01-26 Afternoon

 

Good afternoon, I maid some BOCA Veggie Burgers with Ketchup and some Whole Wheat Bread for Lunch. The Sermon Today was quite Good especially since he went into Details about Jesus in the Wilderness and how it was a call back to stories in The Tanakh, that's the Actual name of the Old Testament. I used to have The New Testament Recovery Version as well as a Tanakh that I'd bring to Youth Group. The Former I was given for Free in the Mail by Bibles for America and the Tanakh I bought from Barnes and Nobles when it was in Dickson City. I may have used the Footnotes in the Recovery Version to Answer Questions in Youth Group back when I was 16. Yeah, I wasn't a True Believer until my Near Death Experience when I was 19. Before being Saved by Actually meeting The Lord in the Empyrean cleansed me of the Darkness of Solipsism. Kierkegaard is my Favorite Philosopher for that Reason, if you Don't Believe in a Higher Power then you are more Prone to Madness in Life. 

I checked the Mail and got a Salvation Army Magazine, that does Remind me, I'm gonna Donate some Clothes either this Week or Next Week. Mom wants me to make some Broccoli and Cream Soup, she saw my Let's Plays and seems to get a kick out of me saying "Y'all", honestly it's just how I speak. I had Selective Mutism for a few Years after what Happened to me in School coupled my Voice going down an Octave so I was Silent for some time. Only after getting my Glandular in June of 2016 did my Voice Return and it was Higher in Pitch and Slightly Southern of all things. But at least I talk now.

My Written Voice however has been Active for Several Years, and it's something I pride myself in. I'm not too keen on Simplicity when it comes to Writing. I've been Writing for Several Years, however it was Stalled in 2014-2015 when I was the 7th Admin for Legend of Zelda Fans on Facebook, however similar to my Position as The LGBTQ Representative of the Cultural and Linguistics Subcommittee in Wayne County's Systems of Care, I left out of both Disillusionment as well as a way to Break the Chains of my Old Self. It's why I view myself in the Past as a Separate Entity all together. He was merely a Mask, a Facade, who I am Now has Always been the Real me. 

That's why I let someone on Facebook who Pretends to be the Old me carry on and Have his Fun. He doesn't realize his Attempts at Antagonizing me has lead to him Inadvertently becoming my Personal Phantom. Of course there are Obvious Differences and between him and me, my Phantom has very Simple Tastes in Games. He prefers Mobile Games and I prefer ROM hacks and Tabletop RPGs, not just D&D and Warhammer but Several. My Favorite has to be the West End Star Wars Roleplaying Game. What kinda makes me laugh as well is my Impostor's need to Flaunt his Girlfriend. It's Common Knowledge that I'm AroAce. Still he has Use as he Helps keep some Family and old Friends in the Dark.

I'm gonna get Dinner started soon, I'm making some Broccoli and Cream Soup for Mom and I. I'll write more this Evening.-Elizabeth 

Elizabeth's Diary 3-01-26 Morning

 Good morning, Today's Wash Day so we are Doing the Laundry, well Mom is taking Charge of the Laundry and I'm Cleaning the House. I had an Interesting Dream, I was in Therapy and things went as Normal without Bringing up Last Week. Mom says it's because I forgave him, Of Course I did. Holding onto Grudges is Very Unhealthy. I ended up Uploading Another Let's Play on my YouTube, this one is for The Wind Waker. https://youtu.be/rY0h6g3GDRM

Yeah, I do find myself Interesting at Times, well in Particular my ASD seems to be Interesting. I have Lots of Emotions but essentially have a Hard Time expressing myself with Facial Communication. I'm Level 1 if you'd like to Pry. I'm very Self Aware, I've been Told as well, well there is a Saying about that "Know Thyself."

I barely ever Talk about my Step Father in particular because he Thrived off of Attention, he was a Total Narcissist who had the Delusion that he was a Genius, when they Reality was that he was Average if I'm being Generous about it. He used to Rent Games from Blockbuster and Not Return them then make Mom pay the Fee. If he Truly were Bright he'd just use Emulators like I do. In the Bible there is a Saying about that "Those who Believe they Know Everything actually Know Nothing."

Speaking of the Bible, I'm gonna get Ready for Church soon, you are All Welcome to Join me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVoMcTuygDo

I'll write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth