Elizabeth's Diary 9-21-25 Afternoon

 Good afternoon, I had a odd dream, I was in a Castle and Violet kept trying to run away. The weirdest part was the Waterways, it led to an old school, it was a Mix of the Grace Ridge's Chapel Hallway on the 1st Floor when it used to be The First Presbyterian Church mixed with Carbondale Elementary's Lobby. Both places hold unhappy memories for me. I do miss Chris, he was my Youth Pastor, I gave him my Top Gun CD and we played SpongeBob Lights Camera Pants during the Summer that I lived Full Time. Hard to believe that was 11 Years ago, it still feels like Yesterday. It's odd when I look back, it's like I used to be someone else entirely, with Growth comes Ego Death, especially when you go through a Psychological Metamorphosis. It's funny, I used to think I'd never change but Time Proved Me Wrong.

Speaking of Church, I attended The Gathering United Methodist Church, I've been attending every Sunday since August. I remember when I converted from Evangelical to Methodist, it was 2015, I was disillusioned with Grace Ridge and I wanted to see my Grandma Mae after Living Full Time as I didn't see her since 2012, so in September of 2015, I would walk along Church Street to the Honesdale Park around 9pm at night, both to Think at the Bench between the War Memorial and The Fountain, afterwards I'd walk home while reading the Billboards, I decided to go to The United Methodist Church at 11am, I remember how Friendly the Folks were, I did see Grandma Mae, she waved at me with a beaming smile, but I found out in October of that year, that she didn't know it was me that day, she was bitter about me going through changes, it's kinda sad, she liked me more as a Stranger than her Granddaughter. She passed away in 2017, I didn't want to attend the Funeral but I eventually decided to go, I walked from Fair Ave to Church Street only to see the Pallbearers taking her to the Hearse, my Heart Sank, I remember the rest of the Family just Celebrating, I didn't partake, I was relatively Indifferent to Her Passing but they were Happy, mostly because of the Inheritance, what I wanted from Grandma Mae I never could receive, Acceptance. But I did join the Church and I felt accepted by them, when I moved from Honesdale, I didn't go to Church for a Very Long Time, that is until the Summer of this Year, I like the new Church I am Attending and it's Online as well.

Now I maid Chicken Patties for Lunch, I'm gonna put on my Maid Uniform and Clean the House, I feel the Compulsion to do so. I'll write more later.-Elizabeth