Elizabeth's Diary 2-27-26 Evening

 Good evening, I maid 3 Baked Potatoes for Dinner, well I ended up Mashing them into a Makeshift Potato Salad including Mayo. I had a Long Day, lately I've been Incredibly Tired. Since I'm no longer Drinking my Dr. Thunder, I've felt my Energy slightly Dissipating. I do Drink 4C Iced Tea but it's Not the Same. I've been a Grouch since I've been missing my Muse. I think after this Entry, I'll be taking a Nap and Reviewing the Movie I promised Later Tonight.

Nights like these Remind me of how I felt during the Time between Bud and Violet. Whenever I was Alone during those Nights, I'd often Feel Incredibly Anxious and Restless to the Point of Heart Palpitations, Regardless of if I like it or not, I am not a True Hermit, I do Crave Interactions, however I tend to be Select about who I talk to. When you've been Hurt as much as I have, you Learn to Blockade yourself from those you Don't Trust.

Kinda interesting since I believe in Radical Transparency over the Internet, but in Reality I'm quite Quiet in Public, only Speaking when Spoken to. I talked quite a bit as a Kid and had No Filter whatsoever and that got me into Trouble most of the time. Being on the Spectrum at least for me is Both a Blessing and a Curse, but being Neurotypical I'd imagine is quite Similar as well.

Throughout the Years I've learned to be Select on what I say, it's why I left Psych Rehab 6 Years Ago, a Jerk who I Trusted when I was 16 with my Gender ended up Outing me to the Whole Group. He was part of the ECO Denomination which I left when I was 18 after I attended Sunday Mass at The United Methodist Church to see my Grandma Mae after 5 Years but as Another Face in the Crowd. I loved the Attitude of the Church so much that I joined it. The Pastor asked my Name and I told him "Elizabeth." It was the First Time, I actually Revealed who I've Always Been Deep Down. That does Remind me someone in the Group 2 Weeks ago, had a bit of a Tiff about me being a United Methodist claiming I'm Evil because of it. If Believing in Jesus and doing what He Tells me to Do, by Ministering to Everyone Regardless of who they Love or Want to Be is Evil, then I'll Accept the Burden of that Perspective.

I'm gonna get some Shut Eye Now, I'll write more later Tonight to Review the Hammer Film that I Promised.-Elizabeth