Good late evening, I maid some Celestial Seasonings Tension Tamer Tea for my Nightcap, what a Night, the Amazon Delivery Driver didn't Bother Delivering our Packages and quite Frankly it's Incredibly Annoying. I did Slip into Littlespace and Watched Berry Big City while Mom was on the Phone, long story Short, the Packages shall be Arriving in the Morning. Honestly it's Nights like these that I find that Trauma Based Coping Mechanism to be Incredibly Useful. My Therapist and I did have a Conversation that Skirted around the Subject but I'm Eager to Talk about it as, I'm Aware he's rather Uncomfortable and perhaps similar to when I was in the Cave on LEGO Island a couple Days ago, I feel it's Eager to Face things Full Steam Ahead. I do question if he is Fearful of Upsetting me given the Reputation some Have of me. Personally I actually Enjoy Talking to him, given he Doesn't try to Change my Inner Nature. I'm quite Peaceful most of the Time. I'm quite Eager to have some French Onion Soup for Lunch Tomorrow. It's my Favorite Soup after all and my Half Aunt Yong Hui taught me the Recipe. While Half Uncle Mark would Make the Pizzas, she would Make the Soups. They ran Papa's Primo Pizza in Honesdale, sad to say after their Passing, the Pizzeria Closed. It's strange there was a Photo taken at the Pizzeria that was in Grandma Mae's House and it had me with 2 Party Hats on my Head and I think that was Proof that I Always was Meant to be a Girl, I was Adorable even in those years. Of course during Kindergarten my "Friend" ended up Tripping me and I Fell on a Chair had a Bad Scar by my Right Eye for a Majority of my Childhood. Even then I suppose I didn't Get Along with Boys, they Knew I was Different from them and thus they Despised me, Ditto during those years and to a Lesser Extent in Current Times.
Speaking of Full Steam Ahead, I played Spirit Tracks, this is my Least Favorite Zelda game when it comes to the Plot. However New Hyrule is a rather Beautiful World, excluding Mallidus, you know he Actually is based upon Asmodeus the King of Demons in Demonology. He's Something I'd Recommend you Never even Talk to let alone try to Bargain with. At his Best Day he'll Try to Destroy your Life, at his Worst, well King Solomon being Thrown Across the World wasn't even his Worst Mood. One piece of Advice, Never mess with the Occult, it will Corrupt you as it did to my Friend Dan, before his Descent he was quite Friendly and Cheerful, afterwards he Tried to Kill me with Black Magic, fortunately my Scapulars and Rosary Saved me even at the Point of Near Death. Fathima's Sacraments truly did Save my Life and my Soul as well.
I also played Luigi's Mansion, this Game in particular this Conservatory reminds me of when I was 12 and Dad and Kat would spend the Nights at Grandma Mae's and I'd be in the Music Shop, I used to Play the Instruments, the Clarinet and Tuba were my Favorites, I disliked the Drums as they were rather Loud, it was quite Interesting as with the 72 Symphonies that I composed on Finale when I was 13 and Uploaded Royalty Free, I tended to Excel in my Passions when I felt I was Alone. I ended up Pretending to Watch YouTube Playthroughs and Comedy Skits, unbeknownst to my Family, I would Compose and Play Beautiful Music as it Reflected my Soul within. I couldn't be Beautiful Physically for a Majority of my Childhood so I Compensated with Music and Drawings. I do question if he Ever Learned of what I Created in the Music World how he would Feel, would he had been Happy that I wasn't a Degenerate or would he be Angry if he Learned that when I uploaded my Music that it was Under Elizabeth, my True Name in the Eyes of God himself. Laziness was but a Farce to my True Passions, I did Mention and Allude to a Double Life in those Days.
The last game I played tonight was Super Mario Eclipse, I tend to Enjoy this Grassland in the Sky as it's Lush Greenery reminds me of my Passion when it comes to Gardening. My Grandma Mae taught me how to Garden when I was 7 and it made me Feel a Sense of Fulfillment, to Create Life itself with the Ground, Seeds, Water and Patience. I enjoyed Planting Vegetables with her on the Hill, the View was quite Beautiful and considering my Short Stature in those years, Okay I'm Still incredibly Short by my Family Standards, it was like Watching the World from a Higher View. I used to Help her Prune the Granny Smith Tree, those Apples were incredibly Tart but Sweet at the Same Time and it was Essentially like Eating a Natural Sour Patch Kid. She used to Bake them in Apple Pies, however my Favorite Pie she baked was Lemon Meringue, now I have Mastered the Recipe. I inherited her Culinary Skills alongside a Hard Work Ethic and Artistic Spirit.
I'm gonna get some Rest now, I will Await the Wal-Mart+ Order alongside Amazon. I'll write more in the Morning.-Elizabeth
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