Good late evening, I maid my Nightcap, some Citrus Tea, it's Helping with my Sinuses. I've been Sounding More Nasally than Usual. You know, it's Interesting back in my Freshman Year of Honesdale High(2011-2012), I was a bit of a Star Wars Extended Universe fan, and I was Mercilessly Teased because of it. The same boy who actually Introduced me to the Series many Years Before, ended up Coming up with a Few Chants to Try to Rile me up. The two of them were "Stupid Star Wars." and "I wrote the Prophecy." I suppose the Teasing made me rather Dislike Star Wars quite a bit. I guess they Got what they Wanted, then again, now that I look at it from a Differing Perspective, yeah Star Wars can be a bit Cringy, mainly due to it's rather Backwards Concepts of The Duality of People. Light vs Dark is complete Hogwash, the World is Far more Complex, Everybody is made of Different Grey Areas in Life. It does make me Laugh a bit that my Bully ended up Falsely saying I was the Bully for using the F-Slur, I'll Admit it Wasn't to be Homophobic as much as a way to Give him a Taste of his Own Medicine as he was Incredibly Bigoted especially towards Gay People, I recall he Talked to my Dad about me browsing FicitonMania(Yep I'm that old) as he overheard me Telling a Friend about it. The Hilarious Part was I didn't Talk to Dad at that Time so what could he do. It's an Interesting Fact about me, I had a Pride Necklace years before it was Common, and it was made of Dichroic Plastic and had the Transgender Symbol on it. It was rather Rare considering it was Custom Made and there were only 12 in Existence, I gave it to a Friend and now have a Estrogen Necklace made of Sterling Silver. It's interesting, I tend to Hate my School Years, mostly because I Didn't have the Gumption to Actually Stand Up for Myself as well as Go Full Throttle with my Transition Sooner. I guess I tend to Fantasize about Heading back in Time and Saying what was Really on my Mind. I have more Happy Memories when it comes to the Internet and Not Facebook. I think it's Fair to say I had a Very Unhappy Childhood and I'm Fortunate to be Moderately Scarred. My Therapist mentioned Writing Letters, I'd Advise against the Idea as I'd Actually Send them. If there's one Negative Trait about me it's my Vindictiveness. I remember in a Support Group Meeting a man named Kirk said that He Wouldn't want to Cross me, well to be Honest he Wouldn't want to Cross Past me, as I'm Fully Aware of what is Said about me in that Group. I tend to Ignore it and my oh my the Things I've Heard, some are True others are either Total Lies or Complete Misunderstandings.
I played Mick and Mac Global Gladiators on the SNES anyway, I tend to not have Enough Space for as many Emulators as I'd like. Not to mention I'm more into Literature, I'm Terrible at Mathematics and I Rely on Tutorials to get my Emulators set up. Still this Game is quite Interesting, especially this weird Glitch where you Fall into the Slime and you can Freely move Across the Ground of the Level. It would be Interesting if he Emerged from the Slime like the Joker.
I also played MySims Kingdom DS, this Game is my Favorite for a Reason, it Taught me how to Communicate Appropriately. Being on the Spectrum I didn't really Understand the Concept of Give and Take in Conversations, and this Game helped where School Therapists Failed. There is one my Current Therapist knows quite well, she actually Tried to Uncover what I was Hiding but I wasn't Ready due to my Father still having the Power to Potentially put me in Conversion Therapy(I was 15 when she was my School Therapist) as well as me just Feeling like she was Extremely Condescending and she would be quite, I would say Old World but Folks in the 50s were Surprisingly Accepting about Sex Change Operations. Well, she would be Stuck in the 1960s. I've actually Never had Issues with Folks born in the 1950s or even the 1930s, but People born in the 60s and 70s are real Pieces of Work. Anywho, that does Remind me of something when I was in Western Wayne(2009-2010) I often was Told this is a Girl's Game in a Rather Mocking Tone, and "Yeah it is, So What" should have been my Response back then. I was quite Insecure back then, well I was essentially doing what Palpatine did by Masking myself, and I did it quite well. It's Interesting too, there are some Folks like a "Friend" named Tony who claimed that if he Knew he would have Defended me, Total Poppycock as he used to Bully me because of him Thinking I was Gay. The Emotional Support Teacher wasn't so Emotionally Supportive as well, she had a Problem with Stewie Crossdressing, I wonder how she would Feel if she saw me now. Come to think of it, I'll likely see her one day and she Won't even Know it's me and I'll Toy with her a bit by Asking her Questions, then when she Asks my Name, I'll have her Guess my Deadname.
The last game I played tonight was Super Mario Land, this game is quite Intriguing, as Daisy's Kingdom has several unique Segments. I love this Area in Particular due to it's Egyptian Themes, I'm quite Fond of Antiquity when it comes to History, I remember Reading Books on Egypt eons ago it Seems. Well, that Brings up Another Western Wayne Story, I was suppose to Give a Presentation on my Interests in Computer Class at the Beginning of 7th Grade and I Chickened out from Telling my Real Interests, aka Cooking, Dresses, Sewing and Embroidery and instead talked about Games and Swords. When I think Further back Josh, yep the same Guy who I had a Horrible Falling Out with actually Influenced me to Play Videogames. If I'm being Completely Honest, I have a Love/Hate Relationship with Games, before Gaming I was quite an Avid Reader as well as quite the Artist. I guess my Justification for Still Playing them is to Use them as a Segway to Reveal Deeper Aspects of my Life. That's one Thing I'm Horrible at is Changing the Topics of Conversations. I suppose I have a Rather Uninteresting Life if it Weren't for Games. They give me Something to Discuss. It makes me Laugh when Folks assume I have a Gaming Addiction when the Reality is, I tend to Play them Long Enough to Acquire a Screenshot. I love my Music above all else, I do Actually Enjoy Videogame Music, well Certain Genres anyway, however my Favorite Music comes from Musicals. Excuse me Telling you these Uncomfortable Truths, my Medicine is Kicking in.
I'll write more in the Morning after Breakfast and once I take my Morning Shower. I'm Sweating up a Storm.-Elizabeth
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