Elizabeth's Diary 5-16-26 Morning

 Good morning, I maid French Toast and Folger's Medium Roast with Great Value Caramel Creamer for Breakfast, it was quite Hearty. I took my First Cymbalta and Honestly I don't feel the Effects yet, however I believe it will Take some Time. I look forward to Monday as I will be Picking up my Estradiol, I am Still rather Angry that the Pharmacy Forgot my Prescription. I will be Talking to my Doctor about my Temper as my Reduction of Spironolactone is taking an Effect on me. I suppose I Crave Estradiol, there is a Saying that it is Natural for a Transsexual Woman to have a Desire for a Maximum Amount of Estrogen and the Desire to Destroy Testosterone in her Body. It has to do with the Brain and Body Mismatching, it is why I tend to harbor an Intense Need for Sexual Reassignment Surgery and will go Through it to Feel Complete. It's one thing I was rather Upset at my Therapist for, he said "There is Nothing Wrong with your Body." Actually it is, it's the Cause of my Suffering, my Father, the School System and my Inner Suffering Stems from the Disgusting Thing between my Legs, the one thing I Desire to get Rid of Above all Else. Mom tends to say that having the Surgery won't get Rid of my Problems, actually it will. I know the Cause of my Pain at it's Core and wish to Correct it. I have Looked Inward and have Seen the Truth for some time now.

I played Hello Kitty Happy Party Pals, this Game reminds me a lot of my Childhood Friend Amanda, we were Friends back in the Carbondale Tri-County's  After School Partial Program. She ended up bringing a Movie she Enjoyed one Night, it was a Hello Kitty Adaptation of Sleeping Beauty. I do Recall including her in my Earlier Works, but not by Name, however I was a Child at the Time and was Still Learning my Written Voice. My Written Voice came when I was 13 and Developed Selective Mutism due to my Voice lowering an Octave, mostly it was due to my Emotional Support Class Teacher that year, back in 09-2010 who said that my Voice would Change. It actually Never Happened as I Always had Naturally Low Testosterone Levels even then. Regardless, I would use a Reverse Falsetto to Mask my True Self at the time as I Awaited my Return to Regular Education to Not hit Road Bumps in the Mental Health System, back then it was Commonplace for Conversion Therapy and in Wayne County Pennsylvania it was often the Only Option. My Grandma Rose taught me how to be a Good Actress and at those Times it was Necessary for my Survival. Back to my Friend Amanda, she was a Close Friend and often Asked about what I would Draw. I would Draw rather than Finish my Homework, due to my Need for Self Expression and Considering how Carbondale Elementary Treated me, I'd say a little Rebellion was Necessary. I feigned Stupidity to Escape their Torment and Transfer to a Partial Program. I likely believe they are Unaware they were Hoodwinked even to this day.

I also played Revenge of the Flying Dutchman, the GBA Port tends to be a lot more Enjoyable than the GameCube version. I suppose it's due to the Greater Variety of Areas as well as it's Linear Approach. I think this is Also far more Lighthearted as the Dutchman Doesn't Abduct Gary and instead Asks him to help Retrieve a Treasure. I consider the Dutchman more Misunderstood than Evil, he is a Ghost so it's his Nature to want to Scare Folks, but Underneath he's an Innocent Soul and considering they put his Corpse on full view in a Clothing Store, you can see why he's Angry. Any Soul would if their Body were Desecrated in such a Manner. I love Goo Lagoon, it's quite a Pretty Place in Bikini Bottom, not to mention the Lifeguard Episode that Took place her is rather Humorous.

The last game I played this morning was Shadow Showdown, Fairly Odd Parents were actually my Favorite NickToons Show. Timmy is far more Likeable compared to Many Cartoon Characters as well as Incredibly Sympathetic. This is Excluding the Sequel with Drake Bell, personally I consider that Film an Abomination as Cartoon to Movie Films tend to Not be as Entertaining and are more of a Cash Cow. I always found Fairy World to be quite a Beautiful Place in Any Animated Series. I guess it stems from my Appreciation for Beauty and Believing in Magic at a Young Age over Science. I still Believe Magic exists but in a Less than Happy Mindset. I do know what you are Curious about and Yes, the Boy who would be Queen is in fact my Favorite Episode.

I'm gonna get Lunch started soon, I think I'll make some Grilled Cheeses after the Wal-Mart+ Order Arrives as I'll be Acquiring Land'O'Lakes White American Cheese. I'll write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth