Elizabeth's Diary 5-10-26 Evening

 Good evening, wow What a Day I've had, it seems that the Wal-Mart+ Order was Delayed Twice so a Refund was issued within 10 Days. I did find Water that was Much Needed in my Room which I gave to both Mom and Violet. Mom tends to Avoid Tap Water, I on the Other Hand Mix it with my 4C Iced Tea. I drink it for it's Feminizing Effects, I've Drank Tap Water my Whole Life, perhaps that Explains me being so Beautiful to begin with Even before I Transitioned. I also Avoided Eating Food or Drinks that came from my Father, due to my Cautious Approach whenever I did talk to him in the Past as I wouldn't Risk him Putting Testosterone in my Foods or Drinks. My Paranoia has Saved me Multiple Times, I recall back in April of 2016 he wanted to Take me Kayaking, he Knew I can't Swim so I Avoid him so he Couldn't Drown me, I walked out of my Apartment 15 Minutes before he Arrived, Locked the Doors as well as Walked through Honesdale's Back Streets, he Attempted to Search for me and I was rather Quick and Stealthy, it Helps I've seen Hannibal and Learned how Hopkins Dodged the Thief while being Aware of where he was. 

I played Paper Mario again, the Amayzee Dayzees and I have a History, back when I was 5 there was a Family Vacation to Ocean City Maryland, on the Ride down, there was a Hailstorm. However I was Asleep when it Happened and in my Dream, there was a Meadow with Green Grass, a Rainbow and a bunch of Fresh Clear Water and Sunshine, and these Creatures in the Background of this Screenshot were Dancing in Circles. I was Unaware of Gaming Consoles at the Time, let alone Games like Paper Mario. Before playing my GameCube, I spent most of my Day Reading and Watching Television. I do question how Life would have Turned out had I never had a Step Father, let alone one who would Play Games all Day while Mom ended up Doing Housework. I prefer to Not Talk about him as bad as my Biological Dad is, I do Respect him for Not being a Total Degenerate. I Despise Laziness, it is Responsible for a Majority of the World's Issues alongside the Sin of Envy, both explain the World's Current State.

Now that we're on that Subject, this is actually my First Game that I completed, well Kat and I worked Together to Complete this game. Madagascar, I remember getting Stuck in the Jungle Banquet and Kat being the Better Gamer helped me out. She claims to not be into Videogames, however she is Quite Good at them. I often tell her she would be an Excellent Let's Player, however she is an English Teacher, kinda Interesting we Both are Readers as well as Writers and we are Both Polyglots and it may be Impolite to Boast about this, we have High IQs. The Rest of the Family are rather Daft compared to us. I suppose that's why we tend to Butt Heads especially when we were Kids, we are Equal when it comes to our Mental Potential. However where we Differ is our Personalities, she tends to be more a Follower as well as Desiring Control. I am a bit of a Rebel, however I desire Freedom above all else, Not Chaos, but True Freedom. I have the Most Respect for Folks who ask What they Truly Want and Take Actions to Acquire what they Desire. It's Not what Others Want for them, rather what they Want from their Souls Deepest Aspirations.

The last game I played this evening was Chrono Trigger Prophet's Guile, while the Helix Blade may be my Favorite Zelda ROM hack, this Chrono Trigger Fangame will Always be my Favorite. I am a RPG Enthusiast, I remember as a Child I would often Play Pretend and as I grew Older, 10 to be Exact, I played my First RPG, The Third Age for the GameCube, however once I saw it was an RPG as it's Category, I recall Going to the Carbondale Library when I was 11 and I discovered a Book, Secrets of the Spider Queen, it lead me to Dungeons&Dragons, I often would Soloplay it, however it Opened even more Doors, and I played Final Fantasy, Baten Kaitos, Skies of Arcadia and of course Chrono Cross. The Last one is my Favorite RPG. However when I did play Chrono Trigger a couple Years Later, I learned about ROM hack a couple Years Ago and I'm Glad I did as the Antiquity Section of the Game is my Favorite and I am quite Fond of The Kingdom of Zeal. Magus happens to be my Favorite Character from Trigger as well and I am Glad to play the Story before Chrono arrives to this Time Period and I am Happy to see Zeal in it's Full Splendor. 

I'm gonna make some Pancakes for Mom and I  Then I'll be Focusing on my CYOA on DeviantART. I will Write more Tonight.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 5-10-26 Morning

 Good morning, I maid Scrambled Eggs for Breakfast today, it's Mother's Day after all, however I Cook Everyday either way. I had a odd Dream, Dogs were Speaking to me, however some Loved to Cuss. I then was in a Grocery Store and there were a Bunch of Folks and I chatted with them about how much I hate having to Diet and that I'd be more Comfortable just Eating whatever I please and Simply Not Care about my Health. Personally I really Don't Care about being Overweight, being Bone Thin for a Majority of my Life, I Enjoy being Pudgy. I saw an Advertisement for a Game, they showed off a Character's Outfit from some rather Seductive Angles, however all I thought was, I'd love to Purchase that Dress. We are Still Awaiting our Wal-Mart+ Order this morning as well as a Call from Kat. It is Mother's Day so Kat should call up Mom.

I played Strawberry Shortcake Ice Cream Island Riding Camp, I am a big Fan of Strawberry Shortcake as you know, I am Perhaps more Enthralled by this than Barbie. I suppose this comes from a Childhood Friend of Mine watching the Show with me when Kat and I would visit her and her Older Sister in White Mills, my Friend was the First Person to know of my Girlish Nature and not only was Accepting of it but she Encouraged me in my Feminine Interests and this Show reminds me of my First Genuine Friendship. It is Interesting, Dad often would try to Force me into Friendships with Boys in my Youth, however I never Got Along with Boys, I suppose it's because I wasn't like Any of them, nor could I Relate to them, my Friendships with Girls were Real Friendships and I felt far more Relatable. Dad tended to try to Manufacture my Personality, however it Didn't quite Work well for him as I've Always been a Girl despite his Dismay. In a Strange way, I take Delight in Knowing he is Suffering from Realizing he Failed to Contain me. His Suffering Pales in Comparison to the Pain he has Caused me for Most of my Life.

I also played Ms. Pac-Man Maze Madness, this is one of my Favorite Pac-Man Games and with Good Reason, it's the First 3D Ms. Pac-Man game. I recall a Family Friend name Judy asking me what I wanted for Christmas one year, I ended up just Asking for some Pepsi, however she Insisted I ask for something else so I just asked for the Guide for this Game. It's a Shame that she Turned out to be Not such a Kind Person, I suppose her Greed was the Cause of her Shallow and Worldly Views. I got quite Far in the Second Stage, however I became stuck at this Obelisk. 

The last game I played this morning was Final Fantasy XII Revenant Wings, there's something Surreally Beautiful about this Game as it's quite Similar to Skies of Arcadia. I love games with Airships and Floating Islands, it's quite Serene. I also am quite Mesmerized by the Crystal in Space, it's a Callback to Final Fantasy IX aka my Favorite Final Fantasy Game.

I'm gonna get Lunch prepared soon, I'm making some Grilled Cheeses and Tomato Soup. I will Write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 5-09-26 Night Time

 Good late evening, I maid my Nightcap. It's my Favorite some Licorice Root Tea, I remember Drinking it back in November of 2016, originally I drank it for it's Antiandrogenic Properties, but the Taste originally was Bitter but Became a Comforting Familiarity. It's strange, even though I No Longer Require it for Medicinal Purposes, I drink it out of Routine. I Suppose I can be quite Sentimental, hence why I play Videogames that Often are from my Childhood. I did Upload the Let's Play that I promised earlier, and I will be Working on my CYOA on DeviantART after this Entry. Anywho here is the Let's Play.

I played World of Cars Online again, I think Sunrise gets quite a bit of Hatred, however they Provide a Vital Gift for us Old School Disney MMO players, they Provide Free Revivals of those Games, I happen to be a bit of a Connoisseur of those Games. I actually have Played a Rather Obscure MMO at least Nowadays it was made for us Candy Enthusiasts in Particular it was a MMO for Baby Bottle Pops, I totally Didn't grow up in the 2000s. Anywho I did have Screenshots of that Game as well as Several Other long gone Games, primarily Facebook Games. I had them on a Green Flash Drive, which Disappeared when I Donated my Boy Clothes in 2014 for a New Wardrobe, I had it in a Black Skinny Jean Pocket. So if Any of you Happened to Find a Green Flashdrive from a Pant Pocket in a Salvation Army, well you Found a Goldmine of History from Late 2000s to Early 2010s Gaming. Also Please Enjoy the Sims 1 Music from it. Well back to this Game, I decided to go Tractor Tipping in the Game, it was a Favorite Scene from the Film and I'm Happy it's in the MMO.

I also played myVMK again, I decided to Create my own World in the Game, it's more a Habitable Planetoid than anything else, it has Vegetation, Food Sources as well as Drinkable Water and Warmth. It is Built not just for Survival but also Comfort as I have Several Amenities and Comfortable Chairs to Relax with even a Shower with a Screen for Privacy. That Giant Shoe is actually a Bed to Sleep in. It also has Portals to the Mountain in Fantasy Land, thus Brining Fresh Crisp Air to Breathe, it Doesn't Vanish into Space either as it has it's own Form of Gravity. It's rather Similar to the Gravity in the Honey Hive Galaxy in Mario Galaxy excluding the Fact that despite some Furnishing being in Space, they Don't Fall but Stay in Place. I do Plan on making my Room in the Game Public once it is Complete and to my Liking.

The last game I played tonight was Ocarina of Time, I Remember when I was 12 in Paupak's Day Camp on Beach Day, everybody Else was in the Water whereas I was on the Beach with my Khakis and Polo Shirt on Drawing in the Sand, what I drew was a Recreation of the Master Sword's Pedestal as well as the Sage Medallion Symbols. I was quite fond of this Game, however my Favorite Zelda Game has to be Majora's Mask. I admire it's Message to Shed your Masks to Experience True Happiness in the World. Facades tend to Cause Suffering to Remove your Mask and be Your True Self and Accept Everything including your Flaws, you Shall become Free from your Limitations and Become Truly Happy.

I'm gonna get some Rest soon, I will Attempt to Write more in my CYOA if I have the Energy however we do have a Wal-Mart+ Order coming in the Morning. I also will Write more in the Morning.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 5-09-26 Evening

 Good evening, I maid a Couple Baked Potatoes for Dinner as well as some Homemade Baked Potato Chips, Mom's Back is Causing her Weariness so she is Taking a Nap. Once she Wakes up, she will have Dinner, I plan on Giving her Dinner in Bed and Breakfast in Bed Tomorrow, it is Mother's Day Weekend after all. Speaking of, I will be Finishing the CYOA on DeviantART tonight. Violet was Snuggling with me for most of the Afternoon, she is an Adorable Furangel. I'm happy to be a Cat Mom, I'll Never understand Folks who have Animosity towards Cats. If somebody Dislikes Cats, I question their Morality. I can Understand Dogs as some can be quite Aggressive, but how a Cat Treats you Reflects your Inner Character. Cats Treat you the Way you Treat Others.

I played Lord of the Rings the Third Age, this is my Very First RPG that I played, I was 10 at the Time and Had Zero clue what I was doing. Granted it was my Introduction into the Genre, now the Game is quite the Breeze. I quickly made it to Rohan and I'm quite Happy that I did, I cannot wait until I make it to Minas Tirith, I find it's Architecture quite Beautiful. However my Favorite Gondorian City has to be Minas Ithil at least Before it became Minas Morgul. I am a big Tolkien Fan, my Favorite Book has to be the Silmarillion. After I read that Book, I understood the World of Arda a lot more Clearly.

I also played Super Mario 64 DS, this is my Favorite Version of Super Mario 64 and with Good Reason. I tend to Avoid Remakes unless they have Extra Content and this Game has Plenty of Extra Content, 30 More Stars, New Courses and Bosses as well as the Inclusion of 3 New Playable Characters, Yoshi, Luigi and Wario. I am quite Fond of this Room as it Reminds me of the Void that Squidward was Stuck in in the SpongeBob Episode SB129.

The last game I played this Evening was also the Very First game that I ever Played in my Life, Freddi Fish 3, I always liked Nardine, she seems to be a Good Egg, however she seems to have Gotten into a bit of a Jam in this Playthrough of the Game. Sadly I am Unsure how to Get the Wrench out the Prickly Clam in the Boat. I will Figure it out Eventually, it's one Puzzle I couldn't Solve for about 26 Years. I love how Vibrant this Game is Compared to the First 2, Shading in Games means quite a bit. I remember Playing this at my Childhood Home in Sunrise back when I was 3. This and Barbie Ocean Discovery were my Favorite Games to Play during those Years.

I'm Gonna get my Nightcap Prepared soon, I think I'll make some Licorice Root Tea. It is my Favorite Tea after all. I'll write more Tonight.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 5-09-26 Afternoon

 Good afternoon, I maid some Chicken Salad for Lunch, it was quite Fulfilling, then I listened to some Music, Fun for Fun's Sake. I happen to be a Fan of the Strawberry Shortcake Franchise. I remember first Watching the Show when I was 5, a Friend from White Mills watched the Show, similar to me she was Also the Secondborn in her Family and her Big Sister ended up Not Treating her Kindly. I often question the Nature of Sibling Rivalry and why Such Jealously Exists. I guess I Despise Envy, as it Causes a lot of Trouble. To me it's a Sin that's far Worse than Pride, at least the Prideful are Self Destructive and Don't Tear Others down. I suppose that's why I like Transformations in Fiction and Despise Swaps and Possessions, even in my Years of Practicing Magic, I only Attempted Transformation Spells, and if I recall Correctly there was a Website called TheMagicVine where I bought a Transform into a Woman Potion for 200 Bucks on my 13th Birthday, sad to say it Didn't Work and it Tasted strangely like Couch Grass. It was a Waste of Money that's for sure. Now that we are on this Subject back in 2010, Kat and I had a Conversation on a Rainy Fall Day while Riding Bus106 to School. She went through a Hypothetical about if we Swapped, she went into Great Detail, however when I Told her "I'd Rather Transform." She said I was "Disgusting." Quite Frankly I find Coveting Someone Else's Life to be Far more Abhorrent, I suppose it says a lot about our Values, she like her Father desire Control and I desire Freedom. I guess that's why I have Mostly Libertarian Views.

I played Astro, the SEGA Saturn certainly has some Entertaining Exclusives, however when you have a Laptop, Exclusives are just a Term rather than a Limitation. I love the Surreal Setting in this game, it's like Thumbelina and Star Trek had a Child in Videogame Format. I actually am a big Fan of Deep Space 9, Quark is my Favorite Character. The Combat is rather Different in this Game, I suppose I should Read the Manual.

I also played The Legend of Oasis, I am quite Fond of RPGs, Life after all is one Big Role Playing Game, when you Think of it, Everybody has a Role and our Decisions lead to Different Outcomes. I suppose my Love for RPGs comes from Playing Pretend Games as a kid, I believe that Interests Don't Really Change as much as they Evolve. I love the Setting in this, I find the Ancient Sumerian and Persian times to be quite Interesting, the Cradle of Civilization will Always have a Interesting Appeal. 

The last game I played this Afternoon was Magic Knight Rayearth, believe it or not, I'm surprisingly not into Anime. However I am Fluent in Japanese, I learned the Language when I was 16, my Reason being I Desired to play Region Locked Games and Visual Novels. I also learned Mandarin at 19 so I could Start a Clothing and Supplement Business as Alibaba would be Required. Sad to say the Business didn't happen as the Tariffs tend to be Too Expensive at least at the Moment. I do love the Design of Hikaru Shidou, she reminds me a lot of Ranma Saotome, well her Cold Water Version. I think it has to do with the Braid. If it weren't for Purchasing the Ranma 1/2 Manga from the Wayne County Public Library's Booksale Section, I likely never would have my Hair Braided. Mom tends to Braid my Hair when Asked as I can't do so myself, Neither can I Put my Hair in a Ponytail. I don't have the Right Coordination for it. I guess it comes with being on the Spectrum, Folks who have ASD tend to be Rather Clumsy at least According to Studies. I believe I was Diagnosed with it back in 2000, of course in those times it was called Asperger's. As a kid, I didn't even know what Autism was, to me I just was Different, when I found out at 14, I assumed it was a Problem, however it was due to Societal Stigma. It took Many Years of Therapy to Not be Self Hating because of it, I tend to neither Celebrate or Hate it, to me it's Just having a Different Mind, neither Better or Worse, just Different.

I'm gonna get Prepared for the Church Dinner, that is if Mom would like to Walk to the Waymart United Methodist Church, they are Making Meatball Hoagies and French Fries. I will Write more this Evening Regardless.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 5-09-26 Morning

 Good morning, I had an Interesting Dream last night, I was in the Mines of Moria, however the Hobbits required Shoes so I had to backtrack to Payless. In Reality, Payless still Exists, however it's Online, I have a Friend who Buys Plenty of Shoes from there. We were Supposed to Meet last Year, however I think she had Cold Feet. I maid some Scrambled Eggs and some Folger's Medium Roast with some Caramel Half and Half for Breakfast. It was quite Fulfilling, Eggs tend to do that for me. I Believe that Protein tends to Fill you up Faster that Carbs. I have to Watch my Carbs either way as I have High Triglycerides. 

I played Nights Into Dreams, this is Actually my First Time playing SEGA Saturn games, I've been meaning to Play this game for Several Years and Now I finally did. It's quite a Beautiful game especially the World Design, Nights is certainly an Interesting Character, they are essentially a Dream Guardian in many ways.

I also played Sonic 3D Blast, it wouldn't be a SEGA Console if it Lacked a Sonic Game and this one is quite Remarkable and incredibly Beautiful. This is somewhat Similar to the Arcade Game when it comes to the Camera Angle. I guess this is more 2.5D than Fully 3D still it's quite a Fun game.

The last game I played this morning was The House of the Dead, the Arcade Version actually was in Fun&Games in Honesdale back in the 2000s. I recall Mom used to Work there for a bit, I'd have Free Access to the Activities that Normally required Passes and such, my Big Sister Kat would go to Web City which was Essentially an Indoor Playground. I often would make Sand Art or Play Mini Golf, when I would get Bored, I'd often play this Game, either that or Play the Coin Pusher game, I recall my Friend Dan inviting me to his 14th Birthday Party back when I was 12 and it was there, so I ended up Cashing in the Coins I won from that Game throughout the Years, each Coin was worth 10 Points and I had at least 50 of them, so I gave him 5 Posters of his Choice. He was my Best Friend in Middle School after all, unfortunately in High School he dabbled into Black Magic and hasn't been the Same since. I do Love this Arcade Game,  I remember having a Small Nightmare when I was 4 about the Kageo in the Catacombs of the Curien Mansion, then again I was Too Young to be Playing this Game back in 2001.

I'm gonna get Lunch started soon, I think I'll make some Chicken Salad today, it may be a an Easy Meal, but sometimes they end up being the Best ones. I'll write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 5-08-26 Night Time

 Wow what a Wild Day I had, I had quite the Walk today, however I did have a Good Pepsi at the Waymart Hotel, Mom did get a Ride Home for both of us, I do Worry about her Walking Home Alone after drinking her Apple Crown Royales, she has Fallen a few times and I guess I can't Stand seeing her getting Hurt. She is my Mom after all, I guess you get to the Age where you Worry about your Parents Similarly to how they used to Worry about you. I did make a Italian Woodfire Margarita Pizza for Dinner, it was quite Good, then I wrote Another Short Story Book on Wattpad.

I played Jak 2 again this is my Favorite PS2 game, there's something Oddly Beautiful about this Dystopian Future. Folks still Go about their Business Regardless of their Circumstances, I do Love the Giant Veggies that Grow in the Gardens, however I do Question if they Go to the Citizens themselves of Praxis's Goons.

I also played The Minish Cap, this is my Favorite 2D Zelda game as well as my Favorite GBA game, heck I remember listening to the Music back in 2010-2012 on Bus 106 to and From School, there was something Soothing about the Music after a Day full of Constant Teasing and Academia that Felt beneath my Standards. I guess I Cheated on my IQ Test to get a Lower Score to Spend time with my Games and Music, and High Fantasy Books. I Breezed through Homework in Study Hall in Honesdale High so I could Enjoy the Rest of my Day with my Cat Bud and my Games of course. If there's one thing that has Never Changed, it's my Fondness for Videogames.

The last game I played tonight was Sands of Time, this may not be my Favorite Zelda Fan Game as that honor goes to The Helix Blade, however this is in my Top 5 Favorites. I am quite fond of the Concept of Link still being Reborn even with Ganondorf's Victory and thus having to Fight the King of Evil beyond the Grave. The Wastelands truly are Magnificent, I'm especially fond of the Items in this Game, the Pineapple Shield being my Favorite. I am unsure if this was Manufactured from Pineapple or just Metal that was Modeled after Pineapple.

I'm gonna get some Rest now, but First, I'll Send a link to this Blog to Mom via Email as her own Therapist is Curious about my Writings. I'll Also send this Blog to my Own Therapist as well as my Case Manager. This Blog is Simply a Continuation from my DeviantART Blog, the Show must go On after all. I'll write more in the Morning.-Elizabeth