Elizabeth's Diary 6-02-26 Night Time

Good late evening, I maid my Nightcap some Celestial Seasonings Tension Tamer Tea, then I took my Shower, it's Strange I'm quite Tired Tonight more so than Usual. The shower Soothed my Back quite a bit, I also looked in the Mirror and it seems like my Expression Lines are Dissipating, perhaps I'm Not as Stressed out as I tended to be for Several Years. I think I'm at Peace for the First Time in Several Years, perhaps it's the End of my Chronic Stress or it could be my Celexa. Violet is Snuggling with me, she is Licking my Hair as well. She is currently Purring next to me, she Likely wants her Fancy Feast.

I played Wario World again, this Game was actually my Introduction to Wario, I was 10 at the Time and Bought this Game alongside Luigi's Mansion and Tony Hawk ProSkater 3 at GameStop. Pecan Sands truly is a Unique Area in the Game alongside being one of the Largest. Greenhorn Ruins is quite Similar as well. I admire that the Magons and other Common Creatures that serve the Black Jewel have Different Appearances depending upon the Stages. Pecan Sands has Mummies, however my Favorites have to be the Circus Themes. I think Clowns tend to have a Bad Reputation quite Unjustly, I'm friends with a couple Clowns and they are Very Decent People who Generally want to Make this World quite Joyful. That's not counting the Fact that I had a Clown Poster in my Room in my Youth.

I also played Sonic Adventures DX, this has to be one of my Favorite Sonic Games, but not my All Time Favorite that Honor goes to The Black Knight. Still the Adventures Games were what Introduced me to Sonic. The Emerald Coast has to be my Favorite Stage in this Game, I'm quite Fond of this Spot, the Water in a Tropical Cave is rather Beautiful considering the Greenery brings Life to the Beach.

The last game I played tonight was none other than Sonic Adventures 2 Battle, this was my Very First Sonic game that I played. I was 7 at First Hospital, and I reached Level 2 rather Quickly, mainly due to my Big Sister and Father Conspiring against me. They couldn't Handle me being Elizabeth so they Tried to Send me Away, regardless the Doctors saw through their Trickery but they Encouraged me to Stay there until my Mother and Father Separated so I wouldn't be Subject to more Mental Pain. Regardless, this was my First Game that I played on a Console as well, it was quite Exhilarating Going down a Hill in a City at such a Fast Speed. I can Certainly see why Folks were After Sonic, he caused quite the Pileup. 

I'm gonna get some Rest now, I have a Hair Appointment in the Afternoon. I'll write more in the Early Morning, likely After Making Breakfast.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-02-26 Evening

Good evening, I maid Pacific Whiting with Tartar Sauce alongside some Broccoli and Rice to Accompany the Delectable Dish and some 4C Iced Tea for Dinner. Tomorrow, I'm getting my Hair Trimmed and my Brows Waxed. I get my Dead Ends clipped and my Bangs Neatly Styled and my Brows at Medium Thickness as to Not Look Too Old. I am a Little after all and Thin Eyebrows wouldn't Accommodate my Personality and my Sense of Style when it comes to my Appearance. Speaking of, the Talk on Bluesky about Videogame Music inspired me to Listen to The Suspended Doll from Code Veronica on Loop. It helps me Focus quite a bit.

I played a DS Port of Mario Galaxy, well it's a Alpha Test of sorts, the Double Screen is rather Surreal if you ask me, as for the Galaxies themselves, Slimy Spring shall Always be my Favorite. I admire the Underwater Course that Leads to a Beautiful Meadow with a Perpetual Sunrise. I recall Purchasing the Guide back in 2010, I remember having the First Mario Galaxy guide as well, I bought it when my "Friend" Josh kept Chatting about it in Forest City's Partial Program. I purchased it to Understand what he was Saying. Sad to say our Friendship ended rather Messily from Both of our Faults. His Narcissism and my Temper were Fire and Oil. When he ended up Freaking out in a Livestream and making Threats, that's when I decided that having a Decade and a Half of Association was Enough. I imagine he Still Talks badly about me, but I haven't Seen in Channel in Years because he Isn't really Worth my Attention as it Interferes with my Peace of Mind.

I also played Plants vs. Zombies, this Game is one that I actually First Played on my old Acer Laptop when I was 14, we didn't have Internet at the Time so the New Laptop had DEMOs of these Games, of course I would Simply Factory Restart the Computer so I could Play the Games over and Over again. I actually Valued my PP01L Dell Laptop a lot more as it had the SIM games on there which I acquired through the Public Library via Blank CDs and Abandonware Sites. I had plenty of Classic SIM Games, my Favorite being SIM Tower, which I spent 3 Months on to Create my Beautiful Tower Utopia. I also had plenty of Other Games such as Sid Meier's Alpha Centauri, The Oregon Trail 2 and Wrath of the Gods, LEGOLAND, Barbie as Rapunzel, just to Name a Few. I also had Klik'n'Play which I used to Create my own Games as well as Given some Games to my Friends again through Blank CDs. I also had Plenty of Manga as well, I'm quite Picky when it comes to which Manga I read, however Yu-Gi-OH! was my Favorite especially the Monster World Arc.

The last game I played this evening was Twilight Princess, this is actually my Favorite GameCube Zelda game, however my Favorite All Time Zelda game is Majora's Mask. My Favorite Zelda ROM hack is The Helix Blade. The Teashop in Castletown is quite Peaceful, as you are Aware I enjoy my Tea much more than Coffee, my Favorite is Licorice Root. There's something Captivatingly Sweet about it that makes me Want to Drink more than 1 Cup a Night.

I'm gonna get my Nightcap Prepared soon, I think I'll Brew some Tension Tamer Tea. I'll write more Tonight after I take my Shower to Soothe my Back.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-02-26 Afternoon

Good afternoon, I maid some French Onion Soup and Chicken and Cheese Taquitos for Lunch with some Folger's Classic Medium Roast with some Great Value Lactose 2% Milk and Dominos Sugar. It was quite Hearty, I also wrote another Book. https://www.wattpad.com/story/412075269-tea-time-with-jackie-a-rms-queen-mary-dream It's Strange it's my First Time hearing of that Ship let alone that Ghost, somethings Cannot be Explained, I do Indeed Believe that there is a World Beyond this Physical Plane.

I played Kingdom Hearts Re:Coded, this is actually one of the First Games that I aspired to play when I read the Article in a Nintendo Power issue. My Friend Alex actually ended up Introducing me to the Series back in 2010 in Honesdale Middle School's Lunch Room, her Favorite is Birth by Sleep. I do question if she Remembers how much of an Impact she has had when it comes to my Interests in Kingdom Hearts. Her and I were both the "Emo" kids in School, I personally considered myself a Scene Kid and I considered her one as well at least Partially. I do remember a boy named James would Bother her quite a bit and he had Eyes on her in Less than Appealing ways. That's something I find rather Revolting when People treat us Women like Objects than Human Beings. I guess being Aroace means I look into the Soul and Judge without such a Bias. The Bible does say to Judge by the Heart and Not Appearances. Destiny Islands shall Always be my Favorite World in the Series followed by Twilight Town and Traverse Town respectively.

I also played Peter Pan 2 Return to Neverland for the GBA, the Movie this is based off of is Actually my Favorite Disney Films. Jane actually was my as they say on Reddit First "Transition Goal" I was 5 at the Time and Loved her Hair, considering the Fact that Dad had me Forcefully have Buzzcuts in those Years, Jane's Hair was rather Long to me. I do question how Different my Life would have been if I were just Accepted as a Girl by my Dad instead of being Thrown out into the Snow for 30 Minutes when I was 6 over wearing a Blonde Wig and Cinderella Dress. It's actually a Blessing that he ended up Disowning me as I've been Far Happier without him Interfering with my Happiness. That's not counting his Casual use of the F Slur whenever somebody wasn't as Jockish as he Thought he was. Anywho the Magnificence of the Film was the Ship sequence in London. Hook was rather Bold especially since WW2 was happening and The Jolly Roger could have been Destroyed by Airplanes.

The last game I played this afternoon was Super Mario 64 DS, this happens to be my Favorite Version of Mario 64. It's one of the Few Remakes that I feel have been a Vastly Beautiful Improvement. The Balloon Mario Powerup reminds me of my Friend Tanner, he has a Preference for Things becoming Balloons, I personally Don't Understand the Appeal. Then again I'm a Member of the TG/TF Community since the days of Fictionmania, I never was in the Inflation Community, but whatever Floats his Inflatable Life Raft. Still I tried to Reach out to him on Bluesky but he Isn't really Responding, we Didn't really Talk since 2015 when I ended up Leaving Facebook for the First Time. The Fire Sea is actually my Favorite Bowser Course in the Game but the Dark World is my Second Favorite, my Favorite song in the Game is Koopa's Road, I enjoy the Vocals.

I'm gonna get Dinner started soon, I'm baking some Haliburt with some Tartar Sauce and I'll be making more 4C Iced Tea. I'll write more this Evening.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-02-26 Morning

Good morning, I maid some Scrambled Eggs with 4C Iced Tea for Breakfast, last Night on BlueSky, there was something Trending that's News to me, Apparently Videogame Music is Officially being Streamed. Personally I'll stick with my CDs on my Boombox, I guess I'm a bit of a Traditionalist when it comes to Listening to Music. I actually find it Incredibly Hypocritical that the Same People who Targeted YouTube Channels from when I grew up for Playing their Music now Do Essentially the Same thing but Monetize it as well. I think it's Incredibly Hypocritical, so I'll stick with my CDs. I kinda think I'm Adorable in this Selfie, personally my Cute as a Button Appearance started when I was 13 when I was 12, I had Regular T-Levels then once the Dreams Manifested into my Behavior and Reality, my Test Levels Plummeted from 500 to 85. It does make you Question the Nature of the Mind's Power over the Body or even the Body's Power over the Mind. Then again, I've Always been Incredibly Effeminate at an Early Age, it reminds me of that Powerpuff Girl's Trailer, It Doesn't Matter How it Happened all that's Important is that It Happened. And it works in my Favor, I suppose that also Explains why my Face went from Triangular to a Rounded and High Cheek Appearance. If you ever were to see my Yearbook Photo from 09-10 in Western Wayne's Middle School Year Book, you'd see me having quite Delicate Features with a Rather Miserable Face and a Moe Howard, thanks to Dad's Meddling. Honestly if there's Someone I'd love to see Suffer it would be him, but Not in a Traditional Sense, I'd love to Force Feminize him to Give him a Sense of Empathy. After all he Attempted to Force Masculinize me in my youth, I feel it would be Crass to Not Return the Insult. I believe in Giving Folks a Taste of their Own Medicine when Crossed. As I've said Numerous Times, I tend to Act like a Mirror to my Enemies so they See their Folly.

I also played MyVMK again and Decided to Visit my Favorite Room in the Animal Kingdom section of the Park. It reminds me quite a bit of Zoo America in Hershey, it was my Favorite Part of the Park when I visited it at the Age of 3. There was Something Captivating about the Animals, I suppose even at my First Memories, I preferred Animals over Most Humans. Whenever I was at Daycare, all I could think was when I could See Whiskers again. That Ginger Cat with White Paws and White Chest was my Best Friend, Travis and Wyatt were more Minions to me meant to Stir Up trouble as I wasn't Treated too well there even by the Owner as she was quite Controlling as well as a bit Bitter towards me. I Despised Control Freaks even in my Tyke Years. That Cat mattered more to me that Humanity, I suppose All of my Cats in my Life were my Family, I guess while Mr. Galaxy calls himself the Cat Daddy, I'm the Cat Mommy or Cat Queen if I'm being a bit Egotistical, as I've been Friends with them my Whole Life to the Point that I understand them just by being Fluent in their Body Language and Meows. I even Befriended the Snow Tiger in Claws'n'Paws when I was 5. The other Students on the Field Trip were Afraid of him, but I didn't see it that way, to me he was an Innocent Soul Caged for Other's Entertainment. 

I also played Koopa Stole Christmas, this Game is Simultaneously Adorable as well as Impressively Creative as the Wing Caps seem to Work for Everybody including Wario. You also can Pick and Change whichever Characts you Desire at the Beginning of Each World including Yoshi and the Christmas Theme over the Various Stages is quite Beautiful as well. While Easter may be my Favorite Holiday, Christmas comes in at Second Place, I'm actually Not Really a Fan of Halloween. Ironic considering that I would Wear Dresses and Wigs from Party City when I was Closeted in my Early Teen Years. Still I dislike the Idea of Halloween as it Celebrates Not being Yourself, and personally I'd rather Dress up as Who I Truly am. Winged Wario is kinda Adorable and Surreal as you'd Never expect him to be Able to Fly with those Wings.

The last game I played this morning was Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days, this is my Favorite Kingdom Hearts game for a Reason. It makes you Question what is Real and what is Manufactured, I suppose I can Understand as I lived an Artificial Life for 3 Years, or rather a Constructed Entity did so under the Creation of a Cruel Father as well as a Social Circle who Wanted to try to Destroy me with a Hollow Replacement. However their Golem was Miserable as her Wanted to be Destroyed as he Knew his Existence wasn't Real, I whispered in his Ears and Dreams so I could Give him the Gift he Craved, to be Free of such a Miserable Existence. I'm the Sora to his Roxas, Metaphors aside, this Game does dwell into the Consequences of Living a Lie that you were Told to Believe by Malevolent People. The Mansion made me Cry in KH2 as I understood All too Well what was Happening.

I'm gonna make Lunch soon, I'm making some Chicken Tenders and Mashed Potatoes. I'll write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-01-26 Night Time

Good late evening, we Returned home, Mom is currently Sleeping. I'm glad her 4 Miller Lites are Giving her Rest. I know all Too Well what Restlessness Feels like, it's Torment. Back when I was 19, I was part of a Activism Organization in Honesdale. I was the LGBTQ+ Representative for the Cultural and Linguistics Subcommittee in Wayne County Systems of Care. Such a Sophisticated Wording for such a Empty and Manipulative Puppet Position. My Goals with said Position were to Make HRT far more Accessible for the County. It was when my Presentation was Discarded and was Replaced by Jargon used like a Bandage instead of Quelling the Pain of those who Truly Suffer with even Looking in the Mirror on a Daily Basis. It Broke me Mentally where I Couldn't Sleep for 5 and 1/2 to 6 Days due to my Heart literally Aching from the Realization that the World will Always be Against me and Even those Deemed you Allies will Betray you if it Benefits them. It was then that I stated a Statement, that I personally didn't Agree with and then was Targeted by more of my So Called Friends that I slipped into the Shadows and Joined the Sissy Community and Found my Home with them. It's Strange Writing this has Given my Head a Pleasurable Lightheadedness, perhaps due to me Explaining my Fall from the Mainstream Rainbow as Extremely Cathartic. Holding onto such Resentments and Finally Releasing them even in Written Form feels Incredibly Soothing. My point being I can Understand the Necessity for a Good Night's Rest.

I played Super Mario Eclipse again and Choose to Play as my Favorite Character from the Game as well as Visited my Favorite Area in the Game. This Creek is Extraordinarily Peaceful, it reminds me of the Buck's Cove Road back in my Youth long before "Progress" Polluted the Water. The River was quite Refreshing as was the Waterfall as I would have the Stream's Water in a Bottle and Drink it on a Hot Summer's Day in 2001. It's a Shame that it became so Filthy, then again it has Proved something, Humanity Truly is quite Selfish.

I also played LEGO Island and decided to Confront a Fear that I had since I was 8, the Cave. I suppose my Fear of this Place was because the Music reminded me of when Optimus Prime flatlines in the Gen 1 Film, which I shall be Giving the DVD of to my Therapist this Thursday. Still a bit of Exposure Therapy can be Helpful from Time to Time. It's strange the Graphics make it Less Scary as well, come to Think of it, if I can Handle Ikana Canyon and The Shadow Temple, I think it's Fair to say, I can Deal with quite a lot of things Most Folks think are Unsettling. Even I may come Across as Strange to some of you, but hey I'm Elizabeth, I'm me and what you Read from me is What you Get as well as the Truth. The Truth can be Terrifying at times but you have to Face that Fear to Truly be Happy with Yourself as well as the World to a Certain Extent.

The last game I played tonight was WeThePixies, it's my Favorite Dead Disney MMO Servers, I tried to be Friendly and Strike up a Conversation but was Given the Cold Shoulder, either they are Not in a Good Mood or they're Possibly Bots. I'll lean on the Former as the Requirements to Have an Account in the Alpha Version of this Server is a CaF Code, I'm unsure what the Acronym stands For, perhaps my Therapist can Explain it Better for me, seeing that he Studied Computer Science. I'm just a Writer after all, I'm not too Good at Tech Stuff, I rely on Tutorials after all. I'm just Above Average, I'm Far from a Genius.

I'm gonna get some Rest now, I do have a Boring Tuesday so I'll write more in the Morning.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-01-26 Evening

Good evening, we will be Heading to the Gravity Restaurant at 6 so this Gives me Time to quickly Write my Evening Entry. I checked my Protonmail and I was called an "Angel" for Thinking of the Center, regardless they did Save my Life so making a MS Paint Acronym and Artwork for Pride Month was the Least I could do for them. I'm a bit Bashful yet Happy as I may have Angelic Qualities such as being Aroace, having a Deep Connection to Jesus and being Full of Love. However I also have Human Qualities as well, I enjoy Eating, Sleeping and I enjoy some Vices such as Caffeine. My LEGO Magazine hasn't Arrived yet, however I'm eager to Acquire it. 

I played Tony Hawk Pro Skater 3 for the N64, the GameCube version was what I grew up with and I ended up Discovering the Beauty of Custom Area Designs. It's why my Favorite Flash Game is Super Mario 63 and thus why the 063 is in my Various Usernames. I enjoyed Creating my own Levels, I've Always had and will Continue to have that Creative Spark. Elissa Steamer has to be my Favorite Skater in the Series, she truly was a Rebel with a Good Cause and Prevented Legislation that Wasn't in the Skateboarding Community's Favor in the Real World.

I also played Waluigi's Taco Stand, I think this ROM hack is incredibly Creative as I tend to Enjoy Wario and his Escapades over Mario and Luigi's Adventures. Heck Wario World was one of my First GameCube Games. The idea of having a Taco Truck reminds me a lot of the Film Chef. And I enjoyed the Film long Before the Meme.

The last game I played this evening was The Missing Link, this is one of my Favorite Zelda ROM hacks as it Connects Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask with a Melancholic and Tragic Adventures through the Lost Woods into the Deku Road and eventually Recusing Navi from a Demonic Creature and thus Finding yourself at the Start of Majora's Mask. The Helix Blade is actually my All Time Favorite Zelda ROM hack, but The Missing Link is Second Place for me. Monktown has to be my Favorite Area as it's both Somber yet Dreadful in the Beginning then it Becomes a Peaceful land once the Curse is Lifted and the Gerudo Thieves ousted.

I'm gonna go to the Restaurant now, I'll write more Tonight once we Return and I brew my Nightcap alongside Finishing the Book I promised the Other Day.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-01-26 Afternoon

Good afternoon, we Returned from our Walk Downtown, I choose to have a Pepsi and Cheeseburger for Breakfast. We then Walked to the Dollar General for a Candle, Curtains and Essentials such as Laundry Pods. I did get my Celexa, and it made me Incredibly Tired, so I slipped into Littlespace and watched the Berry Best Baking Show, then Took a Nap. I'm Currently Writing in Said State and it's Rather Tricky to Write as well as I Tend to want to.

I played Ocarina of Time again and choose to Explore the Lost Woods for a bit, the Great Moblin has to be my Favorite Miniboss in the Game. He is mostly Aggressive Strength without Defensive Moves other than to Swing his Club. His Death Animation is quite Unique, he seems to be a bit of a Hothead. You actually can Defeat him with Bombchus. Speaking of.

In my Favorite Zelda game, Majora's Mask there are Real Bombchus which are actually quite Spooky in the Game. Personally I found the ReDeads and Gibdos to be rather Adorable compared to these Self Destructive Rats. As strange as this sounds Elegy of Emptiness Link isn't Scary at all to me, I kinda Pity it as it's a Living Husk and before Transitioning I could relate to said Emptiness. I think the Spooky Story someone told made it into a Fearmongering Tactic which Inevitably made the Game more Popular. I loved this game since 2008, when I was given the GameCube Collector's Edition for my 12th Birthday, long before that Awful Story was Written. Majora's Mask is my Favorite Zelda game due to it's Idea of Making the Most of your Time. It's why I always am Racing against a Clock and Living Life to the Fullest. Time is Not Eternal as the Happy Mask Salesman says.

The last game I played this afternoon was Luigi's Mansion, The Billiard's Room reminds me a lot of my Grandpa Joe. He loved Playing Pool as well as Chess, he Taught my Big Sister Kat how to Play Pool and me how to play Chess, he Taught me Petrov's Defense when I was 3 and gave me a Piece of Helpful Advice that I continue to use to this Day, to Always Think 8 Steps Ahead. His Obituary actually References his Love of Pool and Ping Pong. It's even Stranger since the Painting by the Door in the Game looks like him back when he was in his 30s after his Bodybuilding Days. He also was a Lead Engineer for Apollo 11.https://www.legacy.com/us/obituaries/thetimes-tribune/name/joseph-funke-obituary?id=6688315
I'm gonna get Ready for Dinner, I think I'll be having some Butter and Garlic Wings at the Restaurant. I'll write more this Evening after we Return.-Elizabeth