Elizabeth's Diary 6-26-26 Evening

Good evening, I maid some Lipton Chicken Noodle Soup for Dinner, it's something my Grandma Mae used to Cook for me back when I had a Severe Cold, which I currently have, enough so that I closed my Eyes and had a Small Dream, I was in a Contest Show and Won a Trip to El Nido in the Philippines with Cameron Diaz and Ryan Reynolds, why my Subconscious picked those 2 is Beyond me as I tend to Not Follow Celebrities, still they are Decent when it comes to Acting, being a Theater Kid myself, I can Appreciate their Talents. I left Acting after being Given a Male Role in a Play back in 5th Grade so I Stormed Out of the Auditorium but not without Chanting Macbeth with Each Stop during my Tantrum, lots of Tears from the Injustice I faced. The Musical became a Disaster along with 5 Others, my Wrathful Jinx was that Strong. As I've said Numerous Times before finding Jesus, I was a Witch who Followed the Left Hand Path, conjuring Misfortune when Crossed. 

I played Biohazard 1.5 again and Explored the RCPD a bit More, you know these Restrooms do remind me of Something. I am well Aware of the Bathroom Laws, none have come to Pennsylvania yet, but the Irony is, I Never Use Public Restrooms simply because I am Extremely Squeamish especially when it comes to Fluids and Other Things that Come out of Folks so I Avoid Restrooms at All Costs. It does remind me of that Day in 2016 when I saw my Grandma Mae for the Last Time, I asked to use the Restroom at her House as I was More Comfortable heading there instead of a Random and likely Unclean Lavatory, well Getting Kathryn back to her College was quite the Van Ride as getting from Honesdale to Messiah University in Mechanicsburg was an 8 Hour Trip on a Good Day.

I also played Shin Megami Tensei 4 Apocalypse again and decided to Explore the Surface of Tokyo for a bit, this Apocalypse has to be my Favorite Timeline in the SMT Series. I do enjoy the Fact that they Refuse to Speak YHVH's Name least you Invoke his Wrath. However in Reality it's quite Different as you can Talk to him via Prayers as long as you are Saved by Jesus. Jesus does say "No one Comes to the Father Except Through." Him It's why I enjoy being a Born Again Christian, I have a Direct Connection to the Lord and he shall Always be my True Father. In fact the Last Thing I told my Father before being Disowned was "God is my True Father" It does say in the Bible that you Must Love Jesus more than your Family and more than Anything in the World.

The Last Game I played this evening was The Simpsons Arcade Game, it's Strange I was Unaware that the Credits I used were 63 and seeing the Springfield Fire Department reminded me of a Conversation I had with my Therapist Yesterday alongside this being one of his Favorite Games that he played at Fun&Games in Honesdale in the Past. We had a Conversation about my Aspiration for Volunteering to Help in a Soup Kitchen. Well the Scranton one is out of the Question due to the Price of Transportation for such a Journey, however the Waymart Calvary United Methodist Church does have Free Dinners, perhaps I should Help in their Kitchen. I can Volunteer and Help Folks out, it seems like Rewarding Work, as Money is not my Reason rather Fulfillment in Spreading Joy in the World especially those in Need happens to be more of a Reward to me. The Fire Department is Close to the Church which is why that Epiphany Happened. Next Week when I heal from my Cold, I shall head to that Church and Serve the Lord as well as his People.

I'm gonna get my Nightcap Prepared soon, I'm brewing some Citrus Tea for my Cold. I'll write more Tonight.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-26-26 Afternoon

Good afternoon, we Returned from the Doctor's Office and I shall be taking my Celexa at Night to Fight being Lethargic. It's Strange, she gave me an Appointment Card that Didn't have my Name on it, it does Arouse Suspicion, perhaps she isn't Truly Supportive but Pretends to be out of Regulations. Regardless, things shall Progress as Planned, my Issue shall be Corrected, no Matter what I shall become Complete. Self Determinism is my Greatest Trait after all. To Deal with the Frustration, I slipped into Littlespace for a bit and watched Care Bears Welcome to Care-a-Lot and drank a big Cup of Strawberry Milk.

I also played Luigi's Mansion again and choose to Visit my Favorite Dark Room, the Parlor. It reminds me of when I would visit my Great Aunt Betty up in Lakewood in my Youth. When my Cousins would Tease me and Roughhouse my Great Aunt ended up Letting me Relax in her Parlor, of course Socks were required and being Extra Cleanly to Spend Time there. Seeing that I'm a Neat Freak and always Followed her House Rules of Wearing Socks, I was the only one Allowed up there when it came to my Cousins. The Parlor was rather Dark, similar to this Room, however considering I am Sensitive to Light, it was the Perfect place to Relax on Holidays.

I also played World of Cars Online and it seems that the Minigames and Quests are Playable, I'm quite Happy about that and Number of Coins that I Earned for Stacking Tires truly Speaks to me. Perhaps Jesus was Beckoning me towards this Game as I had that Feeling I should Play it for this Afternoon's Entry. The Lord truly knows how to Brighten your Day when you are having a Rough Time. I'm quite Eager to Decorate my Garage in the Game, I love Digital Homes and I'm quite fond of Interior Decorating.

The last game I played this afternoon was The Wind Waker, I originally Tried to Reach the Forbidden Woods however I wasn't too Good at the Timing with the Korok Leaf so I headed to Outset Island to get some Elixir Soup. It reminds me of whenever I would get Sick and my Grandma Mae always had "Homemade Chicken Soup" it was the Lipton Soup but Store Bought is still Technically Homemade if you make it at Home. My Grandma Mae and I shared that Quirk, Telling you the Truth but in a Way that makes you Think about the Wording of our Words. An Example is when I was in 4th Grade at Midvalley's Partial in the Spring of 07' I mentioned that I owned over 100,000 Games, of course it Sounded like a Fib, however I was Telling the Truth as I owned a CD-ROM from Wal-Mart that had over 100,000 Games on it, Granted they were Repeats, however it was the Truth, just told in a bit of an Exaggerated way for my Amusement. In Another Life, I would've been an Excellent Lawyer, but I have Standards and a Compassionate Heart.

I'm gonna get that Lipton Soup Mix brewing as I do have a bit of a Sinus Cold. I'll write more this Evening.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-26-26 Morning

Good morning, I maid a Second Breakfast, some Maple and Brown Sugar and some Arizona Ginseng Honey Green Tea. I did Sleep again and the Dream I had was quite Interesting as I was in the Middle of a Jungle and I saw a Massive Temple with a Glowing Interior, it was quite Similar to Woodfall in that Regard. I have an Admiration for Aztec Architecture which that Temple in Majora's Mask was based upon as they were a Marvel of the Middle Ages to Early Renaissances. It seems that the Ancient World were just as Brilliant as Modern Society at least when it came to Mezzo America. I believe that if you Strip Away the Human Sacrifices you'll find quite the Prosperous Society that we Can Aspire to be when it comes to Architecture, hence why I tended to Draw Landscapes in my youth, I've Always wanted to Create and what better way to do so than Architecture, of course given my Horrible Algebra Skills that Aspiration became a Fairytale, the Same with wanting to become a Genetic Engineer to Create a Mutagenic Virus that would Destroy the Y Chromosome and Replace it with Another X while Altering the Brain's Neural Pathways into a Hyperfeminine State. Yep at 14, I wanted to Create the TG Virus itself, of course my IEP said I aspired to become a Genetic Engineer to "Get Rid of Waste." I think my Definition of Waste and Honesdale Middle School's Definitions were Vastly Different. Yep, I wanted to Force Femininize Humanity even at that Age, I never Desired to Rule the World, just to Cleanse it of Masculinity. It was Fair to Say that I was Different from others in their Early Teen Years as most want to Rule the World and I just Aspired to Change it to be more Tolerable at least to my eyes in those Times.

I played MyVMK again and Explored yet Another World Showcase Room, this one is Canada, I've only been to Canada once in my Life, I was 3 at the Time and it was a Vacation that Mom's Ex-Boyfriend Al took the Family on during the 4th of July in 2000. I remember Enjoying Eating at the Skylon Tower, Mom made sure I ate my Roast Beef before having Vanilla Ice Cream while Looking at Niagara Falls. Al was a Father Figure to me at that age, however Mom ended up Getting back together with my Biological Father a Year Later thanks to the Horrid Events in New York in September of that Year which Changed Many Things in our Lovely USA even in my State of Pennsylvania. I can't help but Ponder how my Personal History would've been Different if the Attacks Never Happened. Perhaps Mom would've Stayed with Al and I wouldn't have Dealt with the Pain Dad Caused when it came to being Hurt Physically and Psychologically when it came to me Crossdressing when I was 5. Perhaps I would've Transitioned a lot Sooner and would have Lived a Happier Life not Plagued by Trauma and I Never would have Punched Mirrors for most of my Childhood.

I also played Animal Jam again and it seems there are Plenty of Players Harassing Folks by Scamming them with their Cheap Trading Tactics. It's Honestly Extremely Annoying, however I don't Play the Game for them as much as the Free National Geographics Articles such as this one on Pitcher Plants, these Pants were quite Useful when it came to the Fruit Fly Problem that we had in Sunrise when I was 14, I was given a Carnivorous Plant Set for my 14th Birthday and it Wasn't the Venus Fly Traps that Killed the Fruit Flies as much as these Pitcher Plants. It was a Lovely Bug Free Year in December of 2010 to the Spring of 2011. On Easter of 2011 was when I came out to my Mom and she Took me to a Psychologist who Said I had Gender Identity Disorder, of course the Shrink's Idea of Help was to Try to Send me to a Hospital which Mom Refused to do luckily. Still I gave the Office a Much Needed Negative Review and it Seems that Folks Agreed with me. That my Friends happens to be the Power of the 1st Amendment. It's Also why this Blog Exists to begin with, after the Leader of that Horrid "Support Group" tried to Cancel me, well they did Succeed in Taking my Name and Story out of a Publication, however I decided to make my own Publication out of Spite and it's Become a Lovely Therapeutic Tool to Express myself. It's why I Don't Trust Liberals a Majority of them tend to be quite Embittered and Cruel especially if you Refuse to Conform to their Rules when it comes to being Seen as a Marginalized Group to them. I believe in having the Freedom to be seen as an Individual and Not to be Lumped into Categories while Simultaneously being Told that Labels are Wrong while they Label you with Euphemisms and try to Quell your Actual Suffering with Bandages of Emotional Support. You can't Fix a Wound with a Cotton Ball and a Kiss to the Knee, the World Doesn't Work that way. That's why I'm Registered as a Republican, I can see through the Hypocrisy and behind the Smoke and Mirrors.

The last game I played this morning happens to be my Favorite Zelda Game well when it comes to Official Games, Majora's Mask. I made the Woodfall Temple arise from the Poisoned Water and I plan of Fighting Odolwa likely Tomorrow. He is my Favorite Zelda Boss, seeing that I myself am quite Decent with a Sword myself, hence why I keep a Fencing Foil in my Room, in Case I have some Uninvited Guests who have Ill Intentions. Just because I'm a Pacifist doesn't Mean I Can't Maim, I can't Kill but I can Technically Cause Pain before the Authorities Arrive to deal with the Troublemaker. Of Course in said Scenario, I'd Break the Burglar's Legs then have Tea with him before the Boys in Blue take him away as I believe in Hospitality even in such a Situation. I do have the McCoy genes after all and I take Great Pride in that side of the Family, as the Southern Hospitality runs Deep. Regardless, this Temple is one of my Favorite Dungeons in the Zelda Series, mostly due to my Admiration of Aztec Style Architecture as I've Said before.

I'm gonna get Ready for the Day and Prepare for my Appointment, Mom is coming with me to Try to Convince the Doctor to put me on Trazodone instead of Celexa and perhaps Risperdal instead of Zyprexa, we shall see the Outcome. I'll write more this Afternoon once we Return home.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-25-26 Night Time

Good late evening, I maid some French Toast with a Sam's Club Diet Cola for an Ealy Breakfast, Violet's been Snuggling with me for Most of the Night seeing that my Sleep Schedule is a bit off from the Evening's Nap that turned out to be my New Bed Time. Perhaps it was for the Best as I needed that Rest, perhaps Slipping into Littlespace in the Earlier Evening was Necessary for my Health. Of Course the Dream I had was Strange as I gave Away those Game Guides Years ago after being Reborn in Jesus Christ and Letting Go of Greedy Living.

I played Twilight Princess again and made it to my Favorite Dungeon in the Game, the Goron Mines. It's Strange when Entering Death Mountain in Ocarina of Time you have to wear a Fire Resistant Tunic, however both the Hero of Winds in The Wind Waker as well as The Hero of Light in Twilight Princess seem to be Immune to Said Heat. Perhaps that's why I favor the Hero of Time from Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask as we both Enjoy the Cold and Hate the Heat. I can't handle Heat, it's been that ways since my Birth as I was Born in the Cold and seem to Thrive in the Cold. Mom loves the Hot Weather but I pretend to Enjoy it as well to Appease her, but I'm much more Comfortable in the Cold as it's my Domain in Life. Perhaps that's why Jadis is my Favorite CS Lewis Character as she Thrives in the Cold as well and tends to share the Same Complexion as me, it's Strange when I was "a Boy" I would Tan rather quick, but since my Dreams became a Compulsion which became a Lifestyle, my Skin and hair Changed from Tan to a Pale Glow and my Hair turned from Brown to a Light Red and my Eyes began to become Dark Green when they used to be Brown, that's not counting my Face Turning from Triangular to Round as well as my Testosterone Levels when I was 11 being 300 and when I was 12 it became just 60. God intended this Path in Life for me, you Cannot Deny your Fate in this World especially when it's Ordained by Jesus himself.

I also played Kingdom Hearts again and decided to have some Fun in Twilight Town, I enjoy the Gliding Feature in this Game, I believe that you gain said Ability after being in Neverland as Tinkerbell has the Gift of Flight that seems to be Carried within you and it can be quite Useful when Navigating some rather Difficult Platforms. Sora shall always be my Favorite Character as Roxas may be Tragic but he is Ultimately Manufactured. I prefer the Authentic over the Artificial, it's been that way since my Childhood.

The last game I played tonight was Open RCS, this game is Surprisingly Empty Tonight which is of course Understandable given that it's Nearly 2AM. Still I've got the Server to Myself and it makes me Feel at Peace. I enjoy the Early Mornings as I love the Solitude both in Reality and Online.

I'm gonna write more later this Morning before my Appointment, I'll be Cooking Breakfast as well in a bit.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-25-26 Evening

Good evening, I dozed off after Dinner and had a Strange Dream about being in CVS and going on an Adventure for Books that I used to own, it was Strange as Many Pages were Missing and the CVS was in it's Original Spot. When I woke up, it was 11pm so my Evening Entry may be a bit Late still, I did Sleep the Day away, Violet did Try to Step on my Laptop but Bribing her with some Salmon did the Trick when it comes to Quelling her Curious albeit Unintentionally Destructive Nature.

I played The Wind Waker again and decided to Visit the Cafe at Night and it Seems this Gentleman has a point considering I'm Usually Asleep around this time but I ended up Sleeping a bit Too Early and am up in the Late Night. Still he could have Worded it a bit more Politely

I also played VMK legacy and did my Daily Rounds in the Game when it comes to Credits Collecting, I ran across one of my Favorite Characters, Captain Blackheart. Long before the Ride became a Film and before Captain Sparrow was the Staple of the Series there was Captain Blackheart. My Case Manager knows of Blackheart as she's a bit of a Disney Fan as well, and she's been to the Park.

The last game I played this evening was GTA San Andreas, I made it quite Far, into San Fierro, I'm quite fond of the Trolley as it's a Key Moving Landmark in the Real San Francisco. However I've never really left North East Pennsylvania as this Land is my Home where I was Born and Raised in. I doubt I'll ever Leave my Area let alone head to a State like California, it seems like a nice place but it's a bit Too Liberal for me and Coupled with me being Registered as a Republican, I'd Imagine a lot of Folks would be quite Hostile Towards me even if it's Unjustified.

I'm gonna try to get more Rest as I've got my Psychiatrist later in the Morning. I'll write more in a bit Tonight.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-25-26 Afternoon

Good afternoon, I maid a Green Bean Casserole for Lunch, then our Wal-Mart+ Order arrived, I'm going to Give my Therapist a Can of Soda when I see him in the Morning as I have my Psychiatrist around that Time. Speaking of, when I was in the Waiting Room today awaiting the Bus, there was a Mother and her Unruly Daughter there so I offered the Tyke a Mango Dum Dum Pop, of course I asked the Mother if her daughter could have one as I didn't wanna Step on any Toes and she Agreed. Then then Girl kept showing me Coloring Book Pages, Cute Kid. I actually Inherited my Mom's Nurturing and Maternal Personality, Dad sad to say Wasn't Good when it came to Kids, well from what he did to me in my Formative years, you can see he Wasn't Meant to be a Father. However it's Better to have 1 Decent Parent than None at all. Mom and I are close because she is the Good Parent even if she feels that she "was a Terrible Mother." It makes me Sad whenever she says that as she's The Best Mother that I know and she Really Sells Herself Short when it comes to Morality. She is more than a Good Person, she's a Great Person and I do hope she Knows that.

I played my Second Favorite Paper Mario game, the Original, the Whale has to be my Favorite Character in the Game, mainly due to the Reference to one of my Favorite Books of the Bible Jonah, his Story is a Testament to the Great Lord Elohim's Plans being Inevitable and Flexible. You cannot Run from your Fate and your Destiny in Life for God shall Always find a Way to Herd his Sheep back unto the Pastures. You Cannot Challenge Elohim for he Always shall have his Will be Done. Thy Will be Done on Earth as it is in Heaven after all.

I also played Ocarina of Time again, the Gerudo Mask interests me quite a bit as it Reminds me of when I was 20 and Tried out Prosthetic at the Suggestion of my "Friend" Erik, it Felt Bizarre as something that was Supposed to be there Covered what Shouldn't be there. It's why I aspire for Surgery, to Get Rid of my Problem instead of Covering it up with Artificial Means that Don't Address the Source of my Pain. The Mask Reminds me of those Times and does remind me why there Shall Never be a Season 4 of Hannibal, Buffalo Bill would be a Fool in Modern Times thanks to the Power of Online Shopping. Even in the 90s Gumb sure was Dumb.

The last game I played this afternoon was my Favorite SNES Game, Super Mario RPG Legend of the Seven Stars, the Yoshi Race Track is incredibly Adorable and quite Fun, it reminds me of the Mile Run that I would have to go Through before I was Cyberschooled. I have Asthma so I would often Sprint and Gasp for Air Repeatedly until I reached the End of the Run on the Track, it would take me about 10 Minutes. If I were Attempt to do so now, I'd Likely Pass out considering the Fact that I haven't done Cardio in about 14 Years, not to mention I'm Cute and Pudgy now instead of Lean and Quick. I kinda enjoy being Chubby as I'm a Heck of a lot Cuter than I used to be.

I'm gonna get Dinner started, I'm making some Apple Chicken Sausage. I'll write more later this Evening.-Elizabeth

Elizabeth's Diary 6-25-26 Morning

Good morning, I maid some Broccoli Cheddar Soup for Breakfast with some 4C Iced Tea, we shall be Receiving a Wal-Mart+ Order later Today. I do have Therapy in a bit and Honestly I seem to have Forgotten what to Ask him about, other than Clarifying that he should call me Elizabeth and not Lizzie. That Nickname is meant for Close Friends and it's Impolite for a Therapist and Client to be Friends as it's Regulations. I believe that I'll be doing some Necessary Therapeutic Work in the Last Paragraph as I'll be Facing the Source of my Night Terrors I had in my Teenage Years.

I played my Favorite Video Game of All Time, MySims Kingdom DS and I partook in my Favorite Minigame. I never Lose in this and Neither do I fire a Single Snowball due to me well using the Enemy's Movement Patterns to my Advantage, it's Quite Remarkable that I figured the Technique out back when I was 14. After collecting my Earnings from this Snowball Fight, I ended up Binge Shopping at Sharon's Tailor Shop below the Mountain.

I also played Sands of Time again, this Potion Shop reminds me of a Bar I would play Games at when I lived in Galilee at 12, there was one Particular game where you were a Snowball and you had to Avoid the Larger Snowballs while Consuming the Smaller Snowballs. The Name of that Game eludes me as I've been Searching for it for well Several Years. I'm unsure if it came from a Mega Touch Machine or not, regardless I would get Blisters on my Left Index Finger from playing the Game so much. Keep in mind, this was Before that Smoking Ordinance made Smoke Bars forbidden for Children to enter even in Daylight Hours. The Environment and the Jukebox seems to Remind me of Carol's, yep that was the Name of the Bar.

The last game I played this morning was Majora's Mask my Favorite Zelda game and on Top of that, I Finally Faced my Fear, the Statue that Plagued my Nightmares since I was 15, well similar to my Fear of the Cave from LEGO Island, I came Face to Face with my Greatest Fear and honestly he Truly did Feel Hallow, in that I felt Neither Fear nor Happiness, just Freedom. Hard to believe this Small Statue caused so much Trauma and now it means Nothing to me. Regardless, I'm in Great Spirits and perhaps I'll be Sharing this Particular Blog Post to my Therapist, he may in fact be quite Proud of my Exposure Therapy.

I'm gonna await the Bus Soon, once I return and Receive the Wal-Mart+ Order. I'll Write more this Afternoon.-Elizabeth